Choosing Over Feeling

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There is a whole list of things I didn’t feel like doing today. When I woke up this morning I thought to myself “is it really only Wednesday?” Life can be a drag sometimes. The existential things that I think about are: will I ever reach the pinnacle of success I want? Can I keep writing about self-improvement two-three times a week for the next 50 years? Sometimes I don’t feel like cooking so then I wonder am I going to eat that day and if so what? Sometimes I don’t feel like taking care of myself or the people in my immediate sphere of influence.

I work 12+ hour days every day. And you know what, sometimes I’m like I don’t feel like writing an article today, or a twitter (X) thread, or creating a new product. Maybe you can relate, but sometimes you end up having responsibilities that no one ever said you would have. In my prayer time when I talk to God sometimes I say, Lord I feel like just telling the truth.

The truth is I don’t want to write every day. Being encouraging and inspiring all the time is exhausting. I could go on and on about the things I don’t want to do. Life is designed to take everything away from you and leave you with nothing but object sadness at the end of your miserable life. I’m not perfect and you wouldn’t believe me if I told you how I really feel about some things.